Peace in the Time of Chaos

It’s no secret that holidays look different this year. And truthfully, Thanksgiving seems almost like a slap in the face. We’re supposed to be thankful? Really? After everything that happened this year?

But even with everything this year brought, I’m still thankful. I learned a lot about myself this year. I’ve stretched my limits and extended my capabilities beyond what I thought was possible. I transitioned from a college student to a student teacher, to a full-time (but scared) teacher, and I grow more confident in my teaching every single day.

That’s just one example. I could give so many more. Life looks different. But in the midst of all the chaos of the year, I find peace. I’m doing what I love in more ways than one. I have grown into my own, and I am confident in who I am. I’m learning more every day, and I have minimal stress most of the time. I am trying new things and discovering what I want to be.

Yes, Thanksgiving this year is different, but I’m different too. And because of that, I find peace. I am thankful for who I am and who I have become this year. I am still thankful for my health, family, and friends. I am thankful for learning new things, and consistency that comes out of uncertainty. I am thankful that I have a well-paying job in my field that I absolutely love. I can add so many more things to this list.

Thanksgiving does still almost feel like a slap in the face. Thankfulness is not at the forefront of my mind most of the time, especially with this year. But it serves as a really good reminder to change your mindset and be thankful.

A weird thing is that in some way, I am grateful for this pandemic. You may not share this sentiment, so let me explain exactly why. In January of this year, I found out that the History Department of my university would not let my Honors Thesis count for my History major. I was so angry that I was going to have to write another thesis and couldn’t graduate in May with all the rest of my classmates. But then the pandemic hit. My student teaching got canceled, and all of a sudden, I had all kinds of time. I finished my Honors Thesis in April of this year and was immediately able to start on my second thesis. Despite everything being closed, I was able to find plenty of sources for my report (including picking up books from the library in what I referred to as a drug deal). I worked all through May and June and had my rough draft done by the 4th of July. I was out of town the next week visiting a friend, and then was able to finish it. I truthfully do not think that would have happened in that way without the pandemic. It would have taken me a lot longer, and I would have been under a lot more stress.

That’s why I am thankful for the pandemic. And if you aren’t thankful for it, then that’s fine! But look for the positives if you can. Find peace in the midst of your chaos, even if it’s just for a short time.

This post is shorter than what I’ve done recently, but truthfully you don’t always need a lot of words to get your point across. Take a deep breath, find peace, and be thankful for the time. Yes, there’s chaos, and yes, this year looks different. But hopefully you look different too. Hopefully you can find things that you’re thankful for with this year.

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